My story -

A Joy-full story

Some facts:

Nomadic Dutchie
I'm a true Dutchie, but with over 25 moves and a love for travel, I've found home in many places.
Proud mother
My greatest gift? My beautiful son Boaz.
Groningen
My student days in Groningen gave me more than just a degree. They gave me memories of a life full of freedom and adventure.
From the office to the mat
Facility manager, tour guide, head of animation. I'm a versatile go-getter with experience in many different fields and roles
Guilty pleasures
Pizza, chocolate, and reality TV make for a perfectly balanced life.
Dream under the sun.
My dream? To have my own retreat center somewhere under the sun, where peace, nature, and community come together.
Adventurous soul
Always seeking new experiences, places, and encounters; sitting still is not for me!

My journey so far

In my childhood, I had to grow up quickly because I lived only with my mother, who had gone through a difficult childhood herself. As a result, her traumatic experiences manifested in our life together. I didn’t have nice clothes, and there was always stress about money. Because of this, I always felt like an outsider, different from others. On weekends, we didn’t have family birthdays, but my mother would take me to Jomanda or single parents clubs. My childhood was anything but boring and was always filled with tension.

Tension from the many unusual things we did together, or the emotional outbursts that would happen. At home, everything could change in an instant; more than once, my mother decided out of the blue that we were moving to a different city. As a result, I attended four different primary schools and lived in both the Randstad and a small village in Drenthe.

Early on, I made a solemn promise to myself that I would do things differently in my life. That I would make sure there was money. And I firmly believed that so much more was possible in life than what school and other systems were leading me to believe.

Somewhere, there has always been a inner power within me. A deep knowing, with which I would have long, profound conversations. In my imagination, anything was possible, and I felt that I could make so much more of life.

Through determination and hard work, I managed to make the transition from pre-vocational secondary education (VMBO) to higher professional education (HBO).

When I got pregnant, I completely lost touch with that primal force. The idea of full responsibility and the loss of my freedom overwhelmed me with fearful feelings. How could I, someone who nothing who knows nothing of a "normal" family life, now become a loving mother? During the first months of my beautiful son’s life, I was overwhelmed by very dark and depressive feelings. All the survival I had done up until that point caught up with me in an instant, and I was literally paralyzed.

I couldn't imagine ever wanting to live again. It was a very dark and empty place, one that I can't even fathom now.

I was then diagnosed with ADHD and was prescribed Ritalin and antidepressants. At that moment, it did provide the fuel I needed to function as a mother.

ter that, I started working at a wonderful company called Secrid. The lovely owners, Marianne and René, took me along to amazing retreats by Eric Dowsett. Eric taught me energy work, which mainly involves feeling and acknowledging emotions without taking them personally. I stopped taking my feelings, thoughts, and personal history so seriously or personally. What a relief!

I slowly began to reconnect with that inner power. I didn’t even need the medication anymore! My compassion grew, and during a deep meditation on a mountain in Italy, my heart’s desire started to rise to the surface. I want to pass on this unconditional love through, among other things, yoga.

Since then, my path has been a series of wondrous events. A life of flow and love has unfolded for me. I've been able to follow beautiful trainings and courses, each time discovering a deeper level of trust in myself and in the universe.

I now share this deep trust with you, with all my love!